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Записи с темой: am i a student or fucken terrorist??? (список заголовков)
01:18 

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ok
from this moment i open a seria of my thinks, letters, imaginations (sing what you need).
i'll write it half in english half in russian but with english keyboard. i still haven't a laptop and don't know when will.
hope after finaly i'll end my education and will be perfect in english i'll read this and have a lot of fun :hah:


ya tut uzge 2 dnya.....
hochu katanu. ochen' ostryu.
na samom dele mne vsu poezdku prosto super vezlo. snachala ya v Parize ne mogla naiti bagaz. potom cherez 2 chasa mne skazali chto on yletel v Atlantu. kogda ya priletela v Atlantu ya chut' ne opazdala na samolet. i v dovershenii vsego oni poseeli moi bagaz. koroche eti 2 dnya ya hodila v chem priletela. moi magnitnue kluchi teryalis' i otkazuvalis' rabotat'. ya daze predstavit' seber ne mogla chto budet esli moi bagaz poteryan navsegda. koroche edinstvennoe chto radovalo (osobenno pervui den') chto ya ziva.
vot tol'ko chto poluchila svoi chimodan i ot schast'ya chut' ne opisalas'.
eto chto proizoshlo plohovo. teper' horoshee.
tut do huya i bol'she asiatov. yapontsev konechno nemnogo no ya uze poznakomilas' s 3. odna is nih devushca 21 god - voplosh'enie kavaya. mu s nei ves' den' tusovalis'. na Niagaru poedem, nadeus'. yaponcu mal'chiki prosto precrasnu no ooochen' malen'kie osobenno dlya menya. predstavlyaesh' kak ya kompleksuu??? horosho tol'ko kogda mu za stolami sidim. koroche narod tut normal'nui a takoi gopotu kak u nas net (mozet tol'ko nekotorue negru)
vobshem tyagelo prosto nereal'no no ya vse ravno rada chto priehala)))
kak tebe moi angliiskii???

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01:25 

Я единственный нормальный человек на этой планете. А еще я пытался себя убить!©DJN
one more. i simply have time now so... but its a letter. next time i'll write only for a diary.



daaa na Niagaru s yapontsami koreitsami i kitaitsami)))))))))))
oni takie klassnue, takie veselue!!! ya poka s nimi tusovalas' chut' zivot ne nadorvala hotya vse s trudom govoryat po english (pryam kak ya))) na samom dele ya prosto tut loser. u americanzev proisnoshenie takoe... hotya vot tol'ko chto bula v banke - schet otkruvala - tak vrode nichego - ponyali drug druga. a vobshe shok bul i ne malo osobenno cogda nochu priletela i chimodana net i vse govoryat tipa sorry no blyat' nichego ne delaut.
v obshage zivu odna ne tol'ko v komnate no i na vsem etaze. hot' kakaya to radost'. hotya cogda moi kluch vdrug perestal rabotat i ya uze dumala spat' na polu bulo ne veselo.
zato u menya trener muzic normal'nyi, pomogaet poka. da niche vrode derzimsya. odno ploho: moi ziludoc sovershenno ne perevarivaet zdeshnuu pishu. ter' ya ponimay pochemy americantsu samaya tolstaya naziya: vse girnoe besvcusnoe i mnogo. poetomy ya ne doedau i vse vremya hozu golodnaya. vot schas nado cuda to tashit;sya est' a kak podemau... be

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03:49 

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eti syki-amerikantsu ne p'ut chai. tochnee tu burdu kotoryu oni razlivaut chaem nazvat' nel'zya. ih kofe - govno po opredeleniu (slava bogy ya ego ne prinemau). pitautsya oni escho bolee otvratitel'no. mne yze dali poprobovat' "slooping jam" (it sounded like that) - edy vseh americantsev, nakormili vo vseh buterbrodnuh, daze pokazali "samyu lychshyu byterbrodnyu v Akrone", no moemy zelydky pohyi - chyvstvo kak budto sela zemlu hotya produktu vrode horoshie. narod kotorui tut yze pozil povtoryaet tol'ko odno - smiris'. a ya ne bydy. ya bydy hodit' k yaponke est' ris :eat:

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02:00 

american fastfood. vzglyad isnytri

Я единственный нормальный человек на этой планете. А еще я пытался себя убить!©DJN
kogda po teleky vu smotrite amerikanskie fil'mu - deshevue i ne ochen' - chto oni tam obuchno edyat? pravil'no - byterbrody (kstati ya putalas' zastavit' svoego trenera skazat' eto slovo. polychilos' ochen' milo))). zdes' oni gordo imenyutsa "sandvichi". vu mozet greshnum delom podymali chto eto mif - oshibaetes'. amerikantsu DEISTVITEL'NO zgryt byterbrodu s gazirovkoi i oni deistvitel'no OCHEN' tolstue. vu dymali chto v rossii-ukraine-finlyandii-vsei evrope nekrasivue ludi? teper' zasynte eto mnenie v lubimoe mesto amerikantsev - oni zirnue, neykluzgie, protivnye. ne vse konechno. no protsent ochen' velik.

vozvrash'ayas' k teme o ede. ya tyt em OTVRATITEL'NO. tochnee ela. poka ne poznakomilas' s parnem is kazahstana (ne podymaite plohogo - on rysskii) kotoryi tyt yzge god prozgil i znaet normal'nye mesta dlya priema pishi. o Gospodi, manna nebesnaya! teperi ya mogy est' sypu i salatu a glavnoe BESPLATNO. zgizn' nalazivaetsya. :pozit:

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03:40 

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mne govoryat "ne rugaisya" prichem ne roditeli!!! ny kak eto vozmozgno gospoda horoshie :conf3:

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19:28 

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ya hochy chtob yzhe nastypili yroki :fire:
tyt ot skyki vvesitsya mozhno :hang: vse syki mne obesh'ali "poiti tyda, poiti syda" a v itogi y kogo "za dokymentani nado" komy "v magazin". lzhivue tvari :depress: poshla delat' oryzhie massogogo porazheniya

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03:20 

Я единственный нормальный человек на этой планете. А еще я пытался себя убить!©DJN
perechitala posy - ponyala chto 80% pro edu. nu kto o chem a vshyvyj o bane...

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00:05 

new roommate

Я единственный нормальный человек на этой планете. А еще я пытался себя убить!©DJN
vchera vozvrashajus' vsya ustalaya i sonnaya s Niagary i zastaju svoju komnatu do potolka zavalenuju shmotkami. sredi hlam'ya nevozmutimo sidit devchushka v ochkah i chto-to nabivaet na laptope. moemu ustalomu organizmu ona srazu ne ponravilas'. devchushka okazalas' freshmanom (pervokursnik), is Ohio, izuchaet kakuju-to fignju svyazannuju s govoreniem, igraet na kakojto hreni pohozhej na trubu (tihie vechera mne uzhe obespecheny). eto vse chto udalos' is nee vytyanut'. so mnoj ona razgovarivala neohotno: toli ee spugnul moj prodvinutyj anglijskij, toli chernye prostyni i polnoe otsutstvie veshej. sama zhe ona pohzhe razobrala svoj domik v Ohio i po chastyam peretashila v nashu komnatu. holodil'nik, mikrovolnovka, printer, nereal'naya kucha korobok.... my poznakomilis' - pol dela sdelano. ostalos' podruzhitsya

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00:23 

Я единственный нормальный человек на этой планете. А еще я пытался себя убить!©DJN
a u menya bol'shaya radost': v nashej gruppe international students est' gej. i pohozhe ne odin. vchera ves' den' za nimi nabljudala i staralas' ne zakapat' krovavymi soplyami radosti majku. davno ne videla chego-to bolee milogo :inlove: :inlove: :inlove:

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05:10 

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Chej-to reshila spostit'. opyat' zhalovat'sya na zhizn' - zadralo. chtoby ponyat' nado pobyvat'. tak chto u menya vse puchkom i hvost pistoletom. ochen' hochu poehat' v Washington na eti vyhodnye. Bozhe Bozhe Bozhe pozhalyjsta hot' by udalos' :beg: :beg: :beg:

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04:17 

Washington DC, Mariland, U.S.

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Как описать Питер в двух словах?..

Если коротко: Вашингтон не хуже, просто другой. На самом деле многие люди просто недооценивают Америку - ona vezde raznaya, a Washington tak vobshe nastoyashaya Europe. Vobshem-to net smysla vopit' o krasote goroda pytayas' opisat' ego v dvuh slovah. Tak chto prosto poverte naslovo. A luchshe prover'te. Dazhe ftki tut ne ochen' pomogut.

Kstati post na dvuh yazykah potomu chto pervuju polovinu mne dal napoisat' mal'chik, no bylo uzhe 3 nochi a v 7 30 nado bylo vstavat' i idti v Capitolij. Malen'kij epizod vmesto dlinnogo opisaniya.

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04:19 

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aaaa suuka pol chasa pisala zametku pro Washington a komp vse udalil!!!!!!!
koroche komu interesno - sozvonimsya

@музыка: kazahskij rep

@настроение: exaiting

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06:56 

I don't want this week to finish. evAr!!!

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The point why Im doing this shit right now is because this stupid diary servis wants to kick me out from the active users or something. So while I need to do this note let me tell a little bit about Louisiana.

At very first I was so pissed when realised that we are playing on the spring break week. Cuz almost all my friends and just guys with whom I'm hanging out sometimes wanted to go somewhere on the south and particular in Miami. So I thought my break was ruined, however that was much much better than I expected. No that was HELLIRIOUS!!! We went (we I mean me, my fucking tennis team and my coaches) to Louisiana first in New Orleans and then in the universities in the middle of nowhere. But New Orleans... hell it is fucking amazing!!! I've never seen something like this and sure that this city is unic. Ok not whole city but French quoter. It is hard to explain but its tiny stinky streets with one-two-three floors houses, its music on the streets and of course jazz, its varies of cuisines (luckelly I didn't pay for my meals))), ghosts' stories and my favourite small shops where you can find everything connecting with death. In fact this place has just a cult of death and this is the most charming stuff I've ever seen (Dir en Grey videos does not count). I' not the best story teller ever but just belive me that you would never forget this atmosphere!

Oh also, excluding New Orleans, I had three good matches and sun tan and bunch of unuseful but pleasant stuff. So I could be complitely happy if I shouldn't write two essays tomorrow and then go to school. Life still sucks. And happy to save my diary of course:vict:

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21:30 

кто после этого не умрет тот мужик... голый мужик

Я единственный нормальный человек на этой планете. А еще я пытался себя убить!©DJN
01:35 

Я единственный нормальный человек на этой планете. А еще я пытался себя убить!©DJN
u vas ne byvalo takogo chto vrede vse delaesh pravil'no: ne halturish ni kogo ne podstavlyaesh, kak govoryat amerikantsy doing your best a ljudi vse ravno na tebya naezzhajut, prichem vse i srazu. no esche poganee chto u teh tvarej kotorye vse perechislennoe ne delajut vse v shokolade. vozmozhno vse eto vyglyadit kak soplivye zhaloby na zhizn' no ya prosto uzhe ne mogu terpet'. mozhet chto by vse naladilos' mne prosto nado stat' suchkoj kak vse????? v lubom slushae esche raz i navsegda ubezhdajus' chto pravda vsegda toll'ko vredit i nado ochen' tshatel'no vybirat' komu ee govorit'...


P.S. no samyj otstoj chto ya dezhe ne mogu napit'sya s gorya potomu chto esche poltora goda mne tut nikto ne budet nalivat' :budo:

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00:07 

mazhor

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vchera nochju ya vodila infinity s mehanikoj za 80 000 amerikanskih prezidentov... yae bady, love this life :super:

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23:46 

inogda ya uvazhaju shtaty

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v nashem zamechatel'nom univere ty mozhesh izuchat' vse chto dushen'ke ugodno v tom chesle i:

Intro to Suicidology Course- Register Today! (teoreticheski eto ssylka na kotoruju nado klikat' chto by registrirovat'sya)

:five:

@музыка: Gorillaz - Clint Eastwood

@настроение: finished finals!

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18:01 

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vot byvajut zhe mal'chiki... ne valit' i trahat' no naslozhdat'sya!

@музыка: Nirvana – Rape Me

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10:01 

нытье

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vse nadoelo! vse eti bezkonechnye razgovory o gluboko vnutrennem mire, unikalnosti i ume - BULLSHIT! bullshit predumannyj nenuzhnymu nikomu devkami! nu i chto chto von tu suku vse ljubyat - zato ya blin lichnost'! nahuj vsem sdalas' tvoya lichnost', tvoi uvlecheniya i t.d. U menya uzhe net sil nosit' rozovye ochki - nado prosto prinyat' i uspokoitsya. obtyanytaya zhopa i siski na rastopyrku vsegda pereb'jut samyj luchshij so vkusom podobrannyj naryad; hihikan'ya i dealogi v stile DOM 2 namnogo interesnej disskusii o tvorchestve Pixey; devchachie uzhimki i piski mily a zhelanie pomoch pochenit' velik pochti prestuplenie! YA TAK NE MOGU! POCHEMU NE BUDUCHI LUSBIYANKOJ YA VYNUZHDENA KAZHDYJ DEN' STALKIVAT'SYA SO VSEM ETIM!!!! inogda mne hochetsya prosto vyrezat' levoe polusharie mozga i tozhe radovat'sya shenochkam, "tomu hot-hot-hot parnju iz 3 metra", i flirtovat' so vsemi podryad! zachem mne vobshe eta golova esli ot nee odni nepriyatnosti??????
eto kakoj to ad i nikakogo prosveta... pochemu v etom parshivom mire esli tee nuzhen uspeh ty dolzhen byt' extrovertom???? da ya blyad' hochu vsporot' zhivot 90% ljudej vokug i mne srat' na to "what's your major and which music are you listening to"! people are just incredibly stupid but i belive there are several who are fine but FUCK I AM NEVER GONNA FIND THEM CUZ I'M FUCKING ITERVERT!!!!! how many times i tried to tell myself "fuck all of them Tash - live your life, you don't need anybody". but apperently i do! i can't live in civiliation and dont talk to anybody. on the island - you're welcome; Chicago - forget it. and actually i kind of want somebody to care about me, a person i can rely on but FOR ME IT IS FUCKING IMPOSSIBLE TO FIND ONE! it sounds like a time for suicide? yea but i like to exist to much to end it with my own hands, and I still have a tiny little hope that some day (yea in fucking 50 years) i'll find somebody. yea it's like a chance to win a National lottery - theoretically you can do it; you even can start planning where you gonna spend all those money (as one of my idiot friends does) but you NEVER-MOTHERFUCKING-EVER GONNA WIN IT! and there is noothing funny about this whole situation. sometimes i just want go on the street and start cutting people untill they will put me in a jail and exicute. at least that would be fun.

also i hate how all those soft-hearted cunts care about children in Africa, enviroment, blue wheles and all that crap, particulary hate those kids in Africa. why the hell i need to care about them and feed them? let them die or better kill them if you wanna be humanistic. and kill every nigga that raped sold drugs or kill somebody (you know when i was writing the word "nigga" i was thinking should i do it or should i not! THAT'S WHAT THEY DID TO ME! I CAN'T EVEN CALL NIGER A NEGER CUZ IT UNPOLITE! FUCK YOU AND YOUR DIVERSITY CRAP! i don't wannna be a nazi intentially cuz i hate everybody in general but if you know that all those negro-black shit is commiting 90% of all crimes in US and you still say that we are all equal???????? what are you, a genius?!!! and the worst thing that everyday i have to meet all of this in my life. everywhere i go it;s either some social comercial or aggitation or smth which is hipnotizing me and forcing to give them EVEN MORE RIGHTS EVEN MORE AGVANTAGES BECAUSE THEY WERE SLAVES 150 YEARS AGO??????????????? WHAT? Russians slavary was canceled in the same year with americans and guess what: USA had slaves from another continent which were muchmuchmuchmuch lower developed mentaly than their masters; in Russia they used RUSSIAN PEOPLE AS SLAVES! THAT IS BAD NOT YOUS FUCKEN "AFROAMERICAN EXPERIENCE"! and by the way descendants of those "poor-poor slaves" right now are driving Camarro's and smocking weet with bithces when their "free fathers" in Africa are dying!!!!!! oh why humans are so stupid?

seriously how the humanity still didn't destroy itself when 99% of the populations are living eat-sleep-fuck life and 1% are fucking bastards? no i'm pretty sure i will have a pleasure to see this civilization dying. and that's the only thing that cheers me up right now. and before that moment i want to live a high quality life and longer than anybody else so i can see them dying in agony.

p.s. seems like the only place i can be truly honest (except an everyday-conferences in my head) is this lame diary, which nobody is reading. and conversations with Di. but ever with her i probably seem more positive than i actually am.

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05:52 

life strikes again

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fuck fuck fuck am i ever will have a chance to have fun???!!! EVER???????

seems like every time i want to go out or do something there is assignment or exam or tournament or practice.... NO BUT SERIOUSLY WHY? if i'm not enjoying my life now, when then? at the age of 80 during the retirement? perfect!

ok the latest update: had a concert on Wednesday, bought tickets a month ahead, wanted to go with friends. One day before the concert getting a text from my coach assistant says that we are leaving on Wednesday night! ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME???? i was waiting for this event for so long, probably the last thing that helped me to deal with all this crap and now... i'm just totally doomed. and I have no idea how will i handle these 2 month of the semester that are left.

that's interesting that i'm writing everything to the diary only. there is now way i'm going to post it somewhere else but here cuz i don't want people to know how bad i am feeling. 99% of my "friends" will be happy about it. people like to watch other suffering, so do I. and you know what's the best part - i'll get over it, as i always do. there is no way i can back up right now. it's all bullshit that we are free persons, can choose our path bla-bla-bla.... no. whatever you choose once, you have to stuck with it otherwise - failer. not always of course but it's just proving my point.

btw i'm really into "Lie to me" show. main character is so hot (Tim Roth)! some guys have to become old to be hot. and i'm slowly realizing that i like "sugardaddys". too bad. means to find myself a proper man i have to live in this world without one for at least 10 years more.

well guess what? have to go back to study now. what a surprise.

oh and one more thing: i talked to the academic adviser today and he said in the best case only about 40 credits of mine are transferring. and I need 128... it is a disaster:hang:

@музыка: Blue October - Ugly Side

@настроение: do you still want to ask???

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